A One-Way Correspondence with Fruit

By Christine Strickland

January 15, 2020

Dear Pineapple,

I’m tired of thinking of how to explain this to you. I’ve been trying since you were a blueberry, remember? What to say to you when the day comes when you ask me: Did they really throw kids into cages? Did you all really let them?

I’m tired of learning of new inexplicable realities I know I won’t have an answer for. While you are growing in this warm cocoon and the only bars (I hope) you’ll ever look out from are the ones on the crib your dad put together, kids are in cages. And I know this is happening. We all do. There is no way to explain this.

So I won’t attempt to explain. No clever explanations or lies for you, my sweet budding fruit. I know; we all know.

I don’t think it will make it sound any better to tell you that I’m trying. That I’ve gone to court and jail and legal appointments and stood next to these kids and their parents. That I’ve called these men in power who are doing this bad thing. That I’ve written letters. As though a letter could absolve me of the fact that I know this is happening and I keep on living because I don’t know what else to do.

Like I’ve told you before, I’m sorry. I’m tired of learning new things that I have to apologize to you for, but I’m not tired of apologizing. Because I mean it: I’m sorry.

I’m sorry you have to come out while this is happening. I’m sorry I won’t be able to fix this before you get here, or ever, for that matter.

I’m trying, I’m just one person. I’m your mother.

Pineapple, I hope you never grow tired of doing all you can to set those around you free. I pray there are no kids in cages by the time you’re learning what Freedom is, but I fear there will still be those encaged by this same force at work today. The powerful will keep creating new prisons to fence people in and out.

But before you do that, it’s important that you know you must free yourself. Don’t let them put you in a prison of complacency or apathy, locked up by notions like “that’s just the way things are.” Don’t let them enclose your ideas in a box of what’s possible or what’s right. You must fight to stay free, otherwise you won’t be able to free anyone. Sometimes to free each other, we have to climb inside the cage they’ve put someone else in. It’s complicated, I know: I’m sorry.

Soon, in just six weeks, I’ll have to set you free. I worry about the world I’m letting you out into. But I know that even with all the pain and hate and evil that keeps appearing, you’ll be free to experience the rest: all the wonder, the joy, the beauty this crazy world still has to offer.

Love,
Your Mama

•   •   •

November 30, 2021

Dear Cantaloupe,

Well, I found out today you are measuring on the wee side. So you may not even have reached the size of a cantaloupe quite yet.

Whichever fruit you are at the moment, I can tell already you are a wild one, or at least a fighting one. You punch and kick in a way I don’t remember your brother doing, though maybe he did and I’m just forgetting. There will be plenty to make you want to kick and scream out here, too.

I haven’t marched or cried out like I should, like I used to. Since your brother came, more lies have burned through our country. Fires have seared through parts of it, like ours. Last summer, I cried silent, frustrated tears while I smelled the smoke as our city burned two blocks away from our house. I cried for George Floyd. I cried for Justice, for Peace, for Mercy, for Humanity—big words that you’ll learn someday, that maybe I’ll understand someday—but mostly, I cried because I didn’t know how to protect your brother’s lungs from the fumes of smoke.

And so I’m fighting to keep you safe now. You, my little fighter, who will continue to fight the good fight for and with people like George. You’ll have to fight for all of those big, beautiful words I cried for before. Just be sure not to fight people. Fear is the enemy you’ll have to fight, not other people—or my liver, for that matter, so you can quit kicking it.

The fact that you are a little small means your first days might be harder, just like your brother’s were. But I know you are strong; you’ve proven that! And my Love will surround you, protect you, probably overwhelm you. It is the same Love I’ve been loved with, that we’re all loved with. It is the Love that moves us to fight in the first place. And never has a cantaloupe been loved more than you are. Never forget that.

So, even as you box against my organs, stay inside for as long as you can. I’m sorry in advance if we have to pull you out sooner. We’ll see how my blood pressure cooperates.

I love you. Daddy and I can’t wait to meet you.

Love,
Your Mama

•   •   •

January 26, 2024

Dear Honeydew,

My, I’m writing this letter to you late! Thank God you’re still inside growing, as you should be. Who knows just how much longer you’ll be in here. I do hope to make it another four weeks with you growing inside, but you will come when you are ripe and ready.

Someday, you’ll read in textbooks about the ugly war that broke out a few months ago on the other side of the globe. You’ll read how terrorists took hostages and soldiers blitzed civilians. Maybe you’ll see the photographs of hospitals hollowed out, of families fleeing their homes. I’ve seen them already. So much blood, so much pain, Honeydew. It makes me wince to write about even in vagaries.

But blood has spilled over onto my hands, too. Taxes from my paycheck are buying these bullets and bombs destined for women, children, people in their homes. My work in a clinic on a poor corner in a city far away from this war—where I strive, at least, from nine to five to help the few people I can—is funding genocide. One day, I fear, you might ask: So what did you do about it? And I’ll have to answer you truthfully: Nothing. Or close to it.

Through much of this pregnancy, I’ve kept my eyes down on my belly and not looked up much. I feel too much joy at your coming to want to feel sad. I recognize how horrible this reads. I’m wincing again as I write this, though this time, out of shame. No mother in Gaza could forgive this.

In earlier times of my life, not too long ago, I would have been out there with my friends protesting, persuading, writing letters, whatever it took. Instead, now in the evenings, I come home from work, struggle to get your brothers to eat more of their vegetables from their overflowing bowls, bathe them with water safe enough to drink, clean my house that has not been struck by any bomb, and rub my growing belly—you—with a smile on my face. Most nights, I don’t bother checking the news. I know I will read about more mothers who have lost their children, who don’t have any food to feed them, who don’t have clean water to pour for them, whose houses have been flattened by bombs, who don’t even have a hospital where they can birth their babies. And what can I do about it anyway? I don’t know, so I don’t try. I rub my growing Honeydew instead.

Hopefully you’ll believe me when I tell you I’m a good person, or I want to be one, anyway. I’m still hoping I can believe that, too. Whether we believe me on this point or not, believe me when I say I have realized I cannot go on like this. We must open our eyes and hearts to the pain of others, even when it hurts to look, even when it feels we can do nothing to help. So I will try to look, I will try to do what I can to help. How I will do this with (what are soon to be) three young children, I do not yet know.

But my prayer for you, dear Honeydew, is that you learn from my mistakes and that you learn to be good in ways that I only hope to be. The truth is, you already are. You are Love itself, a Love that must be shared with the world by your very nature. You remind me of something I’ve forgotten in myself. You are already making this place better.

Daddy and I are so excited to meet you. Keep growing. Soon, I’ll be holding you in my arms.

Love,
Your Mama

•   •   •

August 1, 2025

Dear next Blueberry, if you ever come,

I’ll try. I promise.



Christine Strickland is a family nurse practitioner who has worked in a variety of cities, countries, and healthcare settings. She currently serves as medical director at a health center in the Kensington neighborhood of Philadelphia. She lives in West Philadelphia with her husband and three young children. You can find her at christinestricklandwriter.com.

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Refugees

By Leah Mueller

                         for Basel Adra

Each morning, he awakens
to the same gunfire, the same pain.

He sees the enemy’s
implacable face: square body
bundled into a gray flak vest,
weapon clutched inside an outstretched glove.
His home once more reduced to rubble.

He moves his possessions
to a different structure,
and then to another, each
more remedial than the last.

Water is scarce, food almost nonexistent.
Loaf of bread, spoonful of white rice.
Sometimes, a few vegetables.

The young eat first.
Parents devour whatever remains.

Elders know when airstrikes are coming,
sense the impact deep within their bones.
Still, they laugh. They nap. They play with the children.
They cover their wounds with strips of cloth.

Each afternoon, he hits the road:
trudging through dust, demanding freedom
that he may never live to see.
Townspeople cluster around him, chanting
as they clutch handmade signs.

Their slogans dream of a home
where Palestinians belong at last—
a land that lies right in front of them,
and yet seems as distant as sleep.


Leah Mueller’s work is published in Rattle, NonBinary Review, Brilliant Flash Fiction, Citron Review, New Flash Fiction Review, Does It Have Pockets, Outlook Springs, Your Impossible Voice, etc. She has received several nominations for Pushcart and Best of the Net. One of her short stories appears in the 2022 edition of Best Small Fictions. Her fourteenth book, Stealing Buddha was published by Anxiety Press in 2024. Website: www.leahmueller.org.

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Endless War

By Linda Bamber

Cassandra swore there was no Gulf of Tonkin
but of course
no one believed her.
She knew the Trojan Horse was loaded with death
and that there were no WMD’s in Iraq

and if Paris, her brother, stole Helen
Troy would fall
and all its people be enslaved.
Then the Pentagon Papers came out.
Didn’t I . . . ? said Cassandra when people were shocked.

Now infanticide
hostage-taking
retaliation beyond imagination.
Genocide. Starvation. 

Cassandra tears her hair.
Since Balfour’s birth
(frantic, disbelieved)

she’s tried to tell us this
is what would be
from the river to the sea.


Poet’s Note
In classical texts, Cassandra was admired by the god Apollo, who gave her the gift of prophecy. In a different mood, he added the curse that no one would believe her.
The Balfour Declaration of 1917 is generally referenced as the moment when Britain decided it would suit its geo-political interests to establish a Jewish Protectorate in the Middle East.


Linda Bamber is a poet and a Professor of English at Tufts University. Both her poetry collection, Metropolitan Tang, and her fiction collection, Taking What I Like, were published by David R. Godine, Publisher. Widely excerpted and anthologized, her critical book on Shakespeare, Comic Women, Tragic Men: Gender and Genre in Shakespeare, was published by Stanford University Press. Bamber has published in periodicals such as The Harvard Review, The Nation, Ploughshares, The New York Times Book Review, The Kenyon Review, The Florida Review, and The Missouri Review. She is currently writing a novella based on the cross-country expedition of Lewis and Clark. 

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God in Hiding

By Kayla Blau

 

Our five-year-old fingers plucked mancala beads,
wove white flower crowns,
blew dandelion seed wishes.
Our Barbies knew no god.
Our families spoke nothing of politics.
Sleepovers at hers were cardamom and allspice,
steaming lamb nestled under mounds of rice, fried eggplant, labneh and cucumber.
Sleepovers at mine, sustained by cardboard box macaroni and cheese,
spoons slick with I Can’t Believe it’s Not Butter.
In middle school, her AIM screen name read jordanianprincess91.
Later, she told me her parents fibbed, spun stories of Jordanian roots
rather than risk the reclamation of “Palestinian” in our majority-white suburb.
My ancestors hid the same, cut the “stein” from our last name,
the trade-offs the hunted make for survival, for safety.
Later still, ICE agents forced Leila’s parents’ hand,
plucked her family from U.S suburbia back to East Jerusalem.
When I visited her,
Holy Land revealed
metal cages, Jews-only streets,
protestors spouting “Death to Arabs” in the same language my ancestors prayed in.
What of apartheid is holy?
What god reigns here?

 


Kayla Blau (she/her) is a queer writer and facilitator based in Seattle, WA. Her work can be found in The Seventh Wave, The Stranger, Crosscut, and South Seattle Emerald, among others. Her poetry and personal essays are included in anthologies such as Emerald Reflections, Writing for Peace: Resistance Issue, and Wanderlust. More of her work can be found at www.keepgoing.press.

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Global Outcry

By Amal El-Sayed

 

A wave of blue and yellow—
A sea of sky and grain
Washed all over the world.
Braving snowstorms and epidemics,
You marched in the name of peace.

A row of strollers lying in wait
In Poland, in Slovakia.
Supplies, donations, support.
Homes—opening
Families—welcoming
The whole world—enclosing Ukraine with love.
So much love.

I applaud you for your humanity—
But I ask you:

Did you offer that same warm welcome to Syrian children
Who are slowly being chewed by hunger in patched tents?
Did you embrace the Syrian mothers with the same solidarity
Or did you leave them to freeze to death in bone-chilling camps?

Where were you when Iraqi women
Struggled to escape the blows and kicks and slaps
Of domestic abuse?
Or did their abayas make them not civilized enough for you?

Where were you when Afghan women
Cried hopelessly for help under the rule of terrorists?
Or did their burqas make them subhuman?

And pray tell—where were you when Mexican children
Were turned away at your borders?
Left to the gangs, the traffickers, the cartels!
Or did the color of their skin make them lesser?

Where was your outcry when Palestinians were
Displaced, tortured, executed, massacred—
Their blood fertilizing the land, their screams echoing through the sky.
Yet still, you turned them away.
Where was your welcome, your sympathy, your so-called humanity?

And did you forget the refugees from
Congo, Ethiopia, Sudan, Nigeria, Dominica, Haiti
Who walked through deserts and crossed perilous oceans
To reach YOU.
But all you did was turn your cheek and say:
Illegal, Criminal, Other.

 


Amal El-Sayed has an MA in English literature and is currently working on her PhD in English poetry. She is an assistant lecturer at Ain Shams University in Cairo, Egypt. Her poems appear or are forthcoming in Poetry Pacific and Spillwords. Her short story “Unmask Me” is to be published by Wyldblood Press in October 2023.

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