Manure

By Robert Delilah

That morning, something jammed the automatic sweeper.

Every hour—on the hour—the sweeper pushed the cowshit that matriculated from the pens above to the waiting troughs just beneath the barn floor. Thanks to the sweeper, the sludge would be shunted off into the pit-like tank beneath it all, instead of rising through the grates as a massive, gut-churning lake. The pit was pumped clean by truck every other week or so; its contents processed, bagged, and sold off to hardware stores, flower shops and, of course, farms.

No one noticed the jam until well into the afternoon, so the troughs had very nearly begun to overflow. But instead of calling for a mechanic, Guillermo’s foreman, Ted, handed Guillermo a twelve-pound sledgehammer, one of those with most of its haft sawn off—the sort used by idiots and oilmen. Between clenched, meth-cooked teeth, Ted hissed two words:

“FIX. IT.”

Guillermo spoke English.

Rather well in fact, as he liked to brag to no one anymore.

But he also liked to pretend he could not. Ted had yet to discover this of course. And ever since Guillermo had been brought to the farm more than three years prior, the two of them had remained on a two-word basis—broken jaw or no. He’d gotten out of this sort of work before, but Guillermo clocked within Ted’s eyes a bloodshot, drug-wired mania and he knew, understanding or no, that this time Ted would broker no argument.

Two days ago, Julia was shipped off to a “facility.” One of the ones the other laborers fearfully murmured about, as if only by being overheard they might themselves be dragged there screaming.

They’d brought Julia to the farm some months back. She spoke little—one-word responses to most anything. Perhaps that was what drew Guillermo to her. But where Guillermo’s silence spoke of cold acceptance, Julia’s screamed of a smoldering rage only just held in check. She kept a buck knife in her pillow. Somehow neither the other laborers nor the foremen ever found out about it. Guillermo himself discovered it one morning when trying to wake her.

He’d lied and told the others he’d cut his hand on a bit of barbwire.

Guillermo and Julia shared meals from then on. And in the ensuing weeks the girl, barely thirteen, became somewhat of a de facto niece to him. He no longer had any family of his own, and if she did, she never spoke of them. Perhaps Guillermo was simply lonely; he suspected as much anyway.

One day, Julia was picking muddy green onions when, shrouded in the cool shadow of a domineering cloud, an uncalloused hand grabbed for her ass.

Guillermo, standing in the sun a field away, heard the subsequent pop of bird-bone knuckles cleaving jawbone. The sound reminded Guillermo of a framer he used to know in Ciudad who’d drive a five-inch nail into rough-sawn timber with just one swing. Ted awoke a while later, sporting a broken jaw and a freshly purple bruise which bled down into his neck.

ICE was there in the hour.

Guillermo felt Julia’s buck knife press against the inside of his left boot when he rounded the back of the cow pen where a line of grates led down into the machinery’s bowels. Crossing a rusted trapdoor complete with ancient, grime-coated padlock, he knelt and unfastened a cross-stitched aluminum panel, then shimmied into the crawlspace. Once inside, still stooped, he stepped from joist to joist, then back along the underpan’s entire length to find where the thing had jammed. The grate above dripped constantly. And every minute or so, a fresh cow pie would slither past him into the already overflowing troughs. There were several near-misses. And he heard little over the clang and clamor of hooves against concrete and steel just above his head. The smell within was dull and sulfurous, but a tang of metallic sweetness rested on the underside of his tongue. Guillermo had worked on this end of the farm since he’d arrived. After the first month, he’d stopped noticing the fetid reek that pervaded the place. Yet now, balancing above a veritable lake of shit, he was pressed once more to reckon with the stench. Grease-flecked and vile. Undeniable.

At last, after some tens of minutes, he located the problem: a rock—practically a small boulder—trapped in one of the tumblers. It was wedged within its teeth like a particularly stubborn seed.

Guillermo perched his foot on an angular joist to straddle the tumbler’s weighty servomechanism. The steel creaked as Guillermo felt the beam itself sag. He froze, loitering between heartbeats, waiting for the rig to inevitably snap apart and collapse.

Bracing his back against the damp ceiling, he readied the sledge, angling to dislodge the rock with one momentous blow.

WHAM.

Brittle flecks shot out as the impact marred the surface of what he realized then was a solid chunk of concrete. He shut his eyes as the spray of chips and dust flew into his face.

It was a slim, half-moment—a twitch within a hesitant spell—but that’s all it took.

Guillermo’s weight shifted, and a forgotten slick of grease leaking from the servo caused his left foot to slide, then slip out from under him. He pitched forward, dropping the sledge before extending his arms to try to catch onto the railing. But, gripping blindly, he missed. Guillermo’s chest slammed hard onto the wedged concrete. The air, forced from his lungs, came out his mouth in sputters. The ensuing impact of rib cage-to-stone was enough to unseat the chunk and Guillermo, flailing, tumbled downwards with it into the awaiting troughs.

He landed with a sickening squelch, and before Guillermo could grasp a sense of where he was or what had happened, a whirring sounded above him, and the rolling tumblers hummed once more to life. Shuffled along the top of the trough’s putrid surface, Guillermo was ferried down a waterfall and into an awaiting well of shit and cow piss. Guillermo feared he might drown and was sure he’d broken his neck. But he rose and wiped at his eyes. No matter how thoroughly he smeared away the refuse, he saw only dark.

In time, though, his eyes adjusted. He gleaned the vague profile of the pit’s sheet metal sides and figured a rough outline of its dimensions by the scant illumination shining through the gaps of the machinery overhead. Guillermo found himself strangely calm. So long as someone looked for him in the next several hours, that someone would find him.

But several hours did pass. Eventually, he started shouting, and then he began to scream.

Yet even these little desperations couldn’t carry past the grunts and the chuffs, the shuffling of hooves on steel, nor past the mechanical drone that shook his skull whenever the servos hummed again to motion. Every hour, the shoots opened and—for the briefest of moments—Guillermo saw dregs of bright sunlight peak through until another fresh load was swept into the pit to pile atop him. And each time Guillermo could do little but hug the far wall and pray.

It was when the sludge rose to his chest, when the subterranean chill had sunk fully into him, that he found himself thinking of the barn’s tin roof, roasting like the dangerous little hotplate he used to warm his coffee; he thought of tamales, cold beer and good sex. And, for reasons he couldn’t quite explain, the sun most of all.

Then he spotted it.

Corroded. As thin at parts as a coat hanger. A grimy, decaying service ladder stuck out of the wall.

Hope alighting within him, Guillermo swam to the opposite wall. Shaking with the effort, buoyed by liquid manure, he lifted himself up onto the bottom-most rung set seven feet from the floor. He climbed, rung by rung, shivering wildly with chill, as his limbs howled and begged him to stop. But Guillermo knew better than to listen. He’d been through worse. He survived the crossing. Survived the Coyotes, and the Cartel. And that bastard Ted. He promised himself he would survive more after this.

So he climbed—more than seventy, eighty feet—until he was under the trap door leading up and out to freedom. Hooking an elbow onto the top rung, Guillermo lifted a hand to the trap door and pushed hard.

CLUNK.

He felt the door catch, exposing a bare inch of warmth and daylight before stopping short on the rusted padlock he’d noticed earlier.

It was locked.

Manic tears dug deep trenches down his stained face as, without thinking, Guillermo seized Julia’s knife from his boot, holding the blade momentarily with his teeth to adjust his grip on the rail. The taste of steel and copper-tinged shit was irrelevant. With a shaking hand he lifted the knife and wrenched hard against the underside of the padlock.

The blade broke with a snap and only a jagged half of it remained.

Choking, sobbing, and with the very last of his strength leaving him, the trap door clattered back into place, casting Guillermo again into darkness. He hung onto the top rung, clutching the broken knife, and cried.

Thump THUMP.

Thump… THUMP THUMP.

Hooves, Guillermo thought. Or were they footsteps? Was he imagining it?

There was a jingling of keys, and a neat click from the padlock. Sunlight blinded Guillermo as the oubliette’s trapdoor was hurled open above him, revealing a crouched and sniggering figure.

Ted flashed crooked grey-and-yellow teeth. “Got a little stuck, eh?”

Guillermo stared, fumbling to extend a grime-laden hand, but the foreman made no motion.

“How’d you get your hands on that?” Ted asked, raising a finger towards the broken buck knife.

Guillermo didn’t answer. Switching his grip, he extended his free hand towards Ted.

Ted grinned, just out of reach, his eyes still transfixed on the thing in Guillermo’s hand.

Then there came a groan and a creak. One end of the rung onto which Guillermo had hooked himself snapped suddenly free. The corroded steel screamed as it bent and warped, while the rung on which Guillermo’s feet were set began to bow. Guillermo wobbled, trying in vain to balance himself in some way that would stop him from toppling backwards into the pit.

Ted made no motion.

Fury welled within Guillermo. Where before he was cold and paled by chill, he now felt his head grow hot, felt his ears burn red. Like candle wax, whoever he was, whoever he’d been before, melted away, leaving only the burnt wick of rage—and a sole impulse.

Guillermo leapt.

The rung broke clean from the wall as Guillermo, in one frenzied strike, stabbed Julia’s broken buck knife above Ted’s collarbone, hooking him like a fish caught by the gills. There was a spurt of scarlet spray as Ted, yellow eyes suddenly wide, pitched forward. With his other hand—firm and calloused—Guillermo seized Ted’s khaki-yellow collar and yanked down, hard.

They fell. Together. Ted struggled hopelessly in the air.

But in the moments before the two of them landed head-first into the pool of liquid refuse, without any prospect of survival or escape, the last vestige of Guillermo gave thought to Julia.

He hoped she was okay.



Robert Delilah is a writer and comedian based in San Diego, California. His written work focuses on the ridiculous, the unsettling and the uncanny. Previous credits include “The Numbers,” published in Black Sheep: Unique Tales of Terror and Wonder issue No. 17, and the comic short “Peel” as part of an upcoming horror anthology from The Panel Smiths comics collective.

Photo credit: James Whatley via a Creative Commons license.


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And They Lived Happily Ever After

By Myna Chang

 


Myna Chang writes flash fiction and short stories. Recent work has been featured in Flash Flood Journal, Atlas & Alice, Reflex Fiction, Writers Resist, and Daily Science Fiction. Anthologies featuring her stories include the Grace & Gravity collection Furious Gravity IX; and the forthcoming This is What America Looks Like anthology by Washington Writers’ Publishing House. Myna lives in Maryland with her husband and teenage son. The family has no patience for racist bullshit. Read more at MynaChang.com or on Twitter at @MynaChang.

Image from the Muppet Wiki.

 

Refugees Displaced in Foil

By Uzomah Ugwu

The guards did not even give us numbers
or sound the vowels in our broken names
that were whole before we arrived
at this destination
that keeps us moving in grief.

She asked what I wanted to eat
like we weren’t going to die here
at any minute, any hour,
borrowed moments we could,
would, not be given back.

She asked with a burnt punctuation
I was forced to feed on for a while ’til
I forged an answer off my dry and unused throat.
Words I cannot remember at all
95 degrees, it did not matter

She grabbed my hand and placed it on my belly,
like she was giving me direction to another life,
and smiled. I wanted to beg her
to take her happiness away
for this was not the place,
here where we laid wrapped in aluminum,
where they baked off our rights as they chose.

We did not give up our freedoms
to feel this consumed.

Her eyes yielded to the floor
for we all were crossing over the border
in hopes of so much more.

Such a high risk for a life
we thought was a myth.
Was it worth it to be sitting here,
like a chicken on a stick
they do not even turn over—do or won’t?

Before I could listen to my grief any longer
she stopped me, looked at me
leaving thorns in my eyes as she said,

“You are always going to be them.”
If you don’t think you have worth in this life,
if you don’t, they will eat you alive.
She took my hand and gave me an orange and smiled,
gazing at the foil that covered us,
smothered refugees

 


Uzomah Ugwu is a poet-writer and activist.

Photo credit: Mitchell Hainfield via a Creative Commons license.

The Right Hat

By Luke Walters

 

The little girl’s teal hat is what caught my eye. She and a woman were hugging the bottom of a gravel drainage ditch, hidden from sight—except to me, perched high in my rig.

I’d just passed dozens more like them sitting cross-legged along the highway next to green-striped border patrol trucks. Their hike across the desert from the Mexican border at an end.

Having headed the back way to Phoenix to avoid the zoomers and the Department of Public Safety, I’d left Tucson early to pick up a trailer of fresh chilis at a farm west of Casa Grande. With the sun rising behind me and miles of highway in front of me, I’d been sleep-driving 75-mph down I-8, a four-lane, flat-straight black-ribbon of asphalt cut through the rough Sonoran Desert. After skating on and off the white edge line for maybe twenty miles, I decided I wanted to live for another day, turned off, and wrestled my 18-wheeler into the parking lot of the rest stop—nothing more than paved-over desert with a half-dozen picnic tables. That’s when I spotted them.

Now, parked lengthwise in the empty lot, I scooted on over to the passenger’s side, pushed past my stack of crossword puzzle books, opened the door, and let my legs dangle out. A can of Monster in one hand and an unfiltered Camel in the other, I relaxed, taking in the monotone landscape. My old favorites, Waylon and Dolly, brought back too many memories and the regrets that came with them, so I listened now to Mozart.

The woman and the girl raised their heads to stare at me. I paid them no mind. After a quick jolt of caffeine and a hit of nicotine, I planned to be back on the road. The pair of fence jumpers weren’t any of my concern.

At least that’s what I thought, until the green-striped SUV of the border patrol passed through the lot.

After scanning the desert behind the picnic tables, the driver, a woman in an olive green uniform, stopped next to me and opened her window. She had the same burnt-brown skin and coal-black hair as the pair in the drainage ditch.

“Howdy, officer,” I said, shutting off the music. “Beautiful morning for catching beaners,  ain’t it?”

Not answering, she gave me her cop smile while studying me. Too much Burger King and too many bottles of Bud showed on my face and my ass. Pretty, I wasn’t.

“Sir, is there anything you’d like to tell me?”

I blew out a smoke ring. “Yeah, there is.”

She watched me, tapping her steering wheel, as I crushed out my butt on the heel of my boot.

I raised my eyes to her.

The woman pulled the little girl close.

“Well, what is it?” the officer asked.

Taking off my Make America Great Again ball cap, I held it out, turning it for her to see. “Just got this. Looks nice, don’t it? Some big-smiling guy who wanted me to vote was passing them out at the garage. I liked my old John Deere better, but it was grungy—all sweat stained and greasy.”

Squaring my new red cap on my head, I said, “Not sure what it is, but somehow, there’s something about this one that just doesn’t feel right.”

The agent waited for me to say more. When I said nothing, she asked, “Is that all?”

“Yeah, that’s all.”

“Okay, sir,” she said, rolling her eyes like she’d been talking to someone simple, and she zipped out onto the highway.

I glanced toward the ditch. The little girl and woman smiled at me. Those were the first genuine smiles I’d gotten in ages. They lasted with me all the way to Phoenix, where I dropped them off.

 


Ed Radwanski, aka Luke Walters, resides in Arizona. His flash fiction has appeared in Yellow Mama, Mash Stories, Post Card Shorts, and in Envision – Future Fiction, an anthology by Kathy Steinemann, published on Amazon.

Photo by Ryan Riggins on Unsplash.

 

Oh, brother, where art thou?

By Kathleen Hellen

“You never really get the smell of burning flesh out of your nose entirely.”
J.D. Salinger

I’d thought that you’d do better than a sidekick, thought that you’d articulate—knowing,
as you must, about the stink they left behind, the helicopters lifting from the ruins in Saigon.

Of course, I smelled it as a kid—a whiff—when boys who lived in trailers—their fathers pulling double-shifts, drunk on sulfur stink, spoiling for a fight, raising fists—shouted Japgo back!
picked me up and threw me down a hill. They spit on my mother.

I smelled it when the mills laid off. Again, the odor. They murdered Vincent Chin.
Again the hint—like chlorine burning in the failed reactor:
ching chong ling long ting tong. It smelled like girls I knew in college.
A strange perfume, as if they’d lit the storefronts, piled up bodies (murders, exonerations).

And then I saw you in the clip, aiding and abetting. You turned your back on witness, like Frankl said. Only those most brutal, those who’d lost all scruples, were self-selected in the camps.
The well-fed, red-cheeked guards who ushered others to the crematoria.

I suppose that in this game of self-selection there are always those
marched off to smokestacks, and those who choose instead to pinch their noses.

 


Kathleen Hellen is the author of The Only Country was the Color of My Skin, Umberto’s Night, winner of the Washington Writers’ Publishing House prize, and two chapbooks, The Girl Who Loved Mothra and Pentimento. Featured on Poetry Daily and Verse Daily, her work has won the Thomas Merton poetry prize and prizes from the H.O.W. Journal and Washington Square Review. Her poems have appeared in American Letters and Commentary, Barrow Street, Cimarron Review, Colorado Review, Diode Poetry Journal, jubilat, The Massachusetts Review, New American Writing, New Letters, North American Review, Poetry East, and West Branch, among others. For more on Kathleen, visit kathleenhellen.com.

Photo by Mike Marrah on Unsplash.